Greater destiny
 

Ok, im not sure if this is more suited for this category or the discussion one but here goes.

I know its gonna sound kinda funny, but i really gotta get this off my chest and ask everyone a question. Do you ever feel like there is something more that you're missing out on? Or like there is more you hafta do? I always do, and it really bugs me. If you do, you dont hafta say so, I was just askin.

Odly enough, i usually only get the feeling really strongly after watchin lots of anime...hehe, i think there is deffinately a direct relation there.

Well from what I understand it, it is a sense of longing. Anime typically has a story focused around a few people who are special and thus the subject of the story. They go on adventures, which are bigger than themselves, and thus accompolish more than the average person. What this feeling is is that you want to feel special, that you want the president to call you and say he needs you to save the world from the alien threat, using only a spork and a penlight. But this is just off the top of my head, I could be wrong.

I usually get a feeling like that when I max out a final fantasy game. I even created a book for each on how to get the most out of your party, how to get the highest stats. I wile away alot of my evenings playing these silly video games and in the end I realize that what I have accomplished isn't tangible, I have given my precious time to this game and it has returned nothing to me.

I have acheived Pixilated Greatness

I get that feeling, sometimes, and I don't watch anime or play final fantasy. (wait...then what am I doing here?)

I sometimes get the feeling that one day, I'm gonna do something great, that I'm gonna be remembered.

Other times, I get the feeling that the world knows something that I don't, but that I should know. I'm afraid to ask what it is that I should know, for fear of looking stupid.

I write, too, and sometimes I feel like I've got this epic, world-changing story trapped inside me, but I don't know how to get it out. It feels pretty frustrating, sometimes.

Whatever effects you emotionally makes your mind think that there is a greater purpose for that specific time.

Take this morning for example, I switched on my CD player and started singing along to a song. It was then that I felt like going out for a run, like my time in the house was being wasted because I had something better that I felt compelled to do.

These things come in different stages and strengths. I'd like to think that my greater purpose is within something that I do - perhaps my poetry for example. But unfortunately I'm so grounded within my mind I know that could never become reality. Shame really.

I get these sometimes in the middle of classes that I dispise.. I'm starting to think they're a challenge to my sanity, and that I should be out there doing something better, making something better... Being a hero or something. Sometimes I just sit and meditate on it, sometimes I write it down.. And sometimes I let it sit in my head and swirl into a story of greatness and tragedy that I could never accomplish but will always enjoy in story form.

Basically, you just have to work out the stress of those feelings the best way you know how, without letting yourself feel more frustrated about what you're doing now. That's my opinion anyway, and nothing more.

Yeah, I have that feeling 24/7. It's somewhat stressful at times, but at others.. it's quite akin to a nirvana-type state of mind.

Dude! I had no idea I'd get this much response, mind you, its not all that much, but its more than i thought I'd get. But I really agree with Wintermute, i get the whole 'Im gonna do somethin great and be remembered' feeling all the time. And I think I've almost figured it out. I daydream litterally 24/7 and it's always somethin stupid. But I guess from all that daydreaming comes a sense of want thats so strong it almost makes me need the feeling. Kinda sad really, but hey, it makes me happy, so I am.

Ah, no worries, human memory is fleeting and generational memory in the grand scheme of things is instantaneous.

I would say check out this poem by Percy Shelly, it sums up pretty much how long you'll be remembered. Me I would say what is important is now...what you do in the present and how you feel about it is what's important; not if others will remember you did something:

Ozymandias


I met a traveller from an antique land,
Who said -- "two vast and trunkless legs of stone
Stand in the desert ... near them, on the sand,
Half sunk a shattered visage lies, whose frown,
And wrinkled lips, and sneer of cold command,
Tell that its sculptor well those passions read
Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things,
The hand that mocked them, and the heart that fed;
And on the pedestal these words appear:
My name is Ozymandias, King of Kings,
Look on my Works ye Mighty, and despair!
Nothing beside remains. Round the decay
Of that colossal Wreck, boundless and bare
The lone and level sands stretch far away." --

by Percy Shelly

I have my occasional fantasy about being a hero, savior, or someone really awsome like Strong Bad. But everyone has those too. I don't feel like I'm missing anything in life, although I do get really depressed sometimes. Those are the yang side of my extremely happy-for-no-reason times. But most of the time I'm just "meh".