I'm back ,and I have to say, I'm feeling a little better since yesterday. See what sleep can do to you? [On a side note, yes, MC43 is Mark Coutu]

Anyway, the reason why I posted this little writing bit wasn't because I wanted all of you to debate on the reasons for crying and what not, or to feel bad about Sept. 11 again, I just thought it was ironic that I was thinking this the same day as the attacks, but let's get off that subject again, I don't want another debate on that.

The reason that I put these words down on the board was just to put my emotions out there, "wear my heart on my sleeve" as someone here had put it. I think it's important to break down once in a while, and I can't see not crying for 7 years though, I hope I'm doing the math right. I've even tried the exercises, if that's what you want to call it, but nothing works, I just can't do it. I think a better term though is I WON'T do it, because I know I can, I've done it before, but ever since 2 years ago I think, I can't seem to force any tears out. Someone said that crying makes you feel weak, belittled for a small amount of time. Isn't that what it is meant to be there for? To be weak for a just a little while?

(shrugs) All right, that's it. I just wanted to put my neck out there and put out some words from a depressed, scared little child hidden within a strong body.

I guess I don't like feeling weak or powerless in my own mind. That's likely why I haven't cried in as long as I had. I'd rather go spar or something to vent my emotions. Or write a decent poem when I'm feeling down.

Maybe that's it. I personally just don't find that spending my time crying is worthwhile. I like to practice my martial arts, sword fighting, and writing. That's likely why. I think, anyway...

Wow. Just wow. I have to say I agree with all of you in some way or another. The societal image, the wont of emotions in public. I however, do tend to show my emotions more often than most, and I tend to voice my opinion as well. I let people know how I feel, but that's probably because of all the grief counselling that I had as a kid. I was always told that it was ok to cry, ok to show your emotions to the world, though sometimes I showed the world too much (ie, angry outbursts). You see, I lost my mother when I was six, to her third battle with cancer in five years. I didn't cry then, probably because I had no idea of the ramifications of it all. I don't know why, but it didn't really hit me until the 8th grade, about five years ago. I all of a sudden realized she was gone forever, and I cried. And cried. And cried. I cried for about an hour. Since then, I have been more inclined to show my emotions, though, as many of you have said, I don't show my emotions nearly as much when i'm hangin out with the guys. I myself don't feel powerless, belittled, weakness, pathetic, anything like that at all. I just feel better when I'm done crying.

Whoops, sorry, I started wandering. Wtih 9/11, I agree with Rai Rai. It happened. It's done. We've done something about it, and we're still doing something about it, at the cost of over 1,000 american troops, as well as innocent civillians. (sorry, had to get that out of me.) Most people are tired of hearing about it. I say let the families grieve, but don't make money off of it. That is completely and utterly wrong.

I once use to cry. A lot. I got teased for it, cried more, and eventually, I guess, ran out of tears. I haven't cried in nearly six years. My eyes have wattered up at times but not beyond that. Damn middle school screwed me up in more ways than I can count...

Grave of the Fireflies makes me cry like 5 or 6 times.
Magnolia, that made me cry for about 45 minutes...

it is good to cry. but then my eyes hurt for days. :(

I personaly find it hard to cry, i havn't realy done any "real" crying in years. Most i've gottin is watery eye's. Those occasion's were like on today when i watched "The passion" for the first time. Realy moving parts(I meen EXTREAMLY moving parts) in a movie will water my eye and thats all.

In elementry school i was the one to beat up, and i cryed alot. When i entered middle school i toughened up and fuaght back. The crying stopped.

It's not that I think crying makes me weak... or I don't want to be seen crying... it's just that stuff doesn't effect me that much. When my uncle's/cousin died (different times) i fealt bad, but didn't cry. I just accepted it and moved on.

I don't beleive in fretting over something enough that it makes me cry, i beleive in getting on with my life.

As for 9/11.... how should i feal about thousands of people dying being shown on TV over and over and over agian? With people exploting this for gain... Let 9/11 rest. Stop bringing it up, it happened yes, it was horrible yes, but as a nation we need to accept it as what happened and move on.