behemoth, we're sorry for your loss, but I'm going ot be honest- nuklear power forums probably isn't the best place to post about the horrible things you're going through. Weight/job/family loss is much better suited towards either a forum geared towards that, or at the very least a more serious one. This isn't any sort of judgement on you per se, just I don't believe this is the right place for this sort of thing.

Next time you come back from a prolongued absence, feel free to just say "yo".