"...What if you could never wake up?"
 

Remember, in the original Matrix film, how [I think] Morpheus asked Neo if he's ever had the feeling that he's living a dream, and what if he could never wake up? (I don't remember this very precisely, haven't watched that movie in ages)...
Well, anyway, lately I've been feeling like that, all the time... It's fsckin' weird! I'll be just playing along in my life, and I'll be thinking about what I'm gonna say and do etc, but I feel like I'm watching it all from outside, in 2d... I don't feel alive... As I said, fuggin' weird... The only things that still stimulate me are on the intellectual level... But I don't feel awake... I sometimes think it's just because I'm always just a bit too underslept, but every weekend, when I get a decent 11 hours of sleep (;)) it's still alot like this... I think I never realised it because on weekends I tend to be at my keyboard 95% of my waking hours (as opposed to about half that much on schooldays), and since it's a purely intellectual experience, I feel fine with it... But goddamn, this is horrible! Has any of you ever had this experience?

I suspect this numbness is self-induced... A couple months ago I came to the conclusion that all of life itself, and existance, are meaningless and have no purpouse (please let's not turn this into an ideological/religious argument, this is not the main subject) and I was sorta depressed for a while, and then I tried to think of what positive implications this realization has, and I thought "oh well, at least now nothing can really bother me, since I know nothing is important..." this may have sunk in deeper than I thought at the time... But this is really starting to bug me... I'm a happy person, don't get me wrong, it just bothers me that I don't manage to experience things on the same level I used to...

go outside and stop playing with silly machines. men!

I don't like going outside... =<
Anyhow, I'm commited to some stuff online (as in, I moderate three very large forums on a large site) so I can't just abandon my machine...

Eh, I've been there and done that. Try getting about 9 hours of sleep per night, every night. 11 hours will leave you feeling like that because you get too much sleep, and 2 or 3 will leave you feeling dead because you got too little. Also, try starting an exercise routine. Not like, a serious one (because god knows I'm too lazy to exercise and wouldn't tell someone else to do something I wouldn't) but when you wake up do some jumping jacks and sit-ups, etc. That should get your blood flowing. It really does sound like you're tired all the time and your head just isn't there. Or you could just be heavily distracted by something depressing/anxiety inducing in your life. Or you may just be depressed.

I usually get about 6-7 hours of sleep on school nights... But for some reason, that's just enough to keep me yawning till around noon... I will set an alarm clock so I don't sleep over 9-10 hours tonight, and I'll try the exercise thingy... Thanks for the advice. ;)
Right now I have 10 days of vacation starting tomorrow (Hanukka) but after that I'll be able to test these suggestions in realtime...
Anyhow, I'm definately not depressed. I'm happy with my life, I enjoy myself, and the only thing that really bothers me is the distant nagging notion that nothing I care about matters... I try (and manage) to ignore it most of the time, but even when I don't, I just accept it, it doesn't depress me anymore.

Could just be one of the other dozen mental problems being slung around now. Seems like someone can always find one to slap on your forehead in this day and age.

I used to experience something similar. I'd see something or hear something, and I would have this incredible urge to comprehend it to the last detail, but I wasn't able to, and it just sorta convinces you that nothing really has a meaning, then.

do they pay you? are you living off of that pay? if not then you CAN abandon the new-age idiot box. unplug your brain and go somewhere, anywhere. Another thing might be the lack of vitamin D in your blood because you arent in the sun enough (don't believe me? look it up, im too lazy to do it for you).

Vitamans give me my Vitamin D. He, foiled the sun's plans once again. Plus there is on sun during the winter for us.

I drink coffee. It seems to work for me.