[Funka Genocide]

I took a beating with the economic collapse and had to sort of flub my way through the transition between military life and civilian life for a few years. I would get really stressed out at times over things I seldom considered during my younger life.

How am I going to pay all these bills? When am I going to get a real mattress? Why do I eat so much McDonalds and why haven't I used my overpriced gym membership in 6 months?

I guess sometimes you just need a kick in the pants (or a self applied kick in the pants.) For me it was a few things, one I was laid off from my boring ass, low paying job and for another my relationship with my girlfriend went from "hey this is great" to "hey this is serious" which prompted all sort of serious self assessment and personal growth (or at least I like to think so.)

I guess it's just transitioning from the craziness of youth into the somewhat staid environment of adulthood. I still get stressed about money sometimes, and I still need to go to the gym more often, but I've defined what's most important to me and everything else can pretty much go take a walk.

I tend to override any thoughts of existential despair with things that entertain me. I mean fuck it, we're all going to bite it some day, it used to scare me when I was a kid but I've had a few decades to mull it over and its not something I really care about anymore. What I do care about is being healthy so I can live longer and play more video games/have more sex/read more books etc. etc.

You're going to get older, things are going to get boring and money is always going to be an issue. Get over it and enjoy yourself as best you can, and try to make more money while you're at it. (Oh, and have more sex. Like seriously, people don't have enough sex. That shit is awesome.)