Just verified it. He's got a half-page obituary in the school paper (not like they had anything else interesting to write about). He committed suicide last weekend and left a note asking his parents to focus their attention on other people. I just... I don't know what to say about it. Jack never struck me as the type.
Turns out I missed the memorial. It was held at his residence at some point and I guess I just wasn't connected to anybody who would have been able to tell me. That said, it feels pretty shitty that the first time I hear about it is in an e-mail that I didn't read for a day because I was being a lazy fuck and sleeping all afternoon.
I'm gonna take a break from NPF. Gonna focus on school, real life, and the people I know. Hoping to make sure I'm not missing any obvious signs that shit isn't going well... I've been such a self-centered ASS for a while that people might have been reaching out to me and I didn't even respond.
Turns out I had Jack blocked on MSN. Not sure how long that had been going on. Maybe I just forgot to unblock him after an argument? Doesn't matter. Now I feel partially responsible.
TTYL.
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