Y'know, aside from your name, I don't really know who you are. (Incidentally, you're new. Not a noob. At least to me.)
Doesn't really mean I couldn't care about this sort of thing. Way to play the pity card there.
Anyway, I
do hope you'll get out of this thing okay. I know somebody else who's been in surgery for over the past 6 years, or so. Nothing extremely serious, but he does end up not being able to do much for a good half year. (this is assuming you actually have to go into surgery. And I'm not trying to scare you. >__<)
Also, I didn't exactly tear the muscle completely through, but I've managed to get a small tear in my triceps once. Even that hurt like a bitch, so I can sort of relate.
Also, softball is... where the pitcher can only throw underhand, instead of over, right? (I always mix it up with the variant where you hit the ball off of a post.)
I don't see how that's a girl sport. I mean, the batter still uses the same muscles as a baseball batter does, so... kick 'em in the nuts when they call you a sissy again?