I know exactly how you feel Bobbey, I always assumed I'd be a dad one day. But living with my parents my Mom baby sits my niece and I help out. Now the kids have always seemed to love me, and I love them (they're family after all). But once my niece was starting to act like a three year old...I started to wonder if I really do want kids. And for that matter I've always been worried about holding babies for the same reasons.
For me, I'm not worrying about it too much. If I marry a woman that wants to have kids, I'll go for it and be the best damn father I can be. If not, that's cool too. For now I'd say give it time, you're 23 and unless you're in a serious relationship where kids are a make-or-break subject you've got plenty of time to think over it and decide what you want.
Also talk to people with kids now and see how they felt about it before they had kids, that's the best thing for you to do. Maybe you'll find that even among parents there are people who've been exactly where you're at. Don't stress about it, it's something a lot of people worry about I think.
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