Also, serious answer:
I was raised Christian, and stayed fairly religious until Junior year of high school or so.
I was laying awake late at night in a trailer in the middle of a field of some family farm in Pennsylvania in, like, 2002 or something, and suddenly seemed to wrap my head around the whole "someday I am going to die" thing for the first time. Like, total lizard-brain, full body paralyzing fear attack freakout, that kinda reaction.
Couldn't ever manage to truly "believe" after that. I consider that the true loss of my childhood innocence. Or at least the one moment I can trace things back to.
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