*dusts hands off, walks out* - Page 2

Geminex · 11-27-2012, 04:38 PM

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WITH HIS GREATEST NEMESIS DEAD WHO WILL STOP SMARTY? FIND OUT IN EPISODE 4: A NEW GROPE.

Ooh oooh is it me?

Also, all the best, Shiney! You helped build a good thing here and it was cool of you to do so!

shiney · 11-27-2012, 04:40 PM

Thanks. I may still participate in the help thread in community, various political threads or guild wars 2 or whatever. We'll see. Right now it's kind of important for me to have a bit of distance though, it's been a bit much this year and I don't...I don't need, this guilty feeling I have, of watching everyone recycle the same arguments, and feeling at once responsible for lacking a steady hand while also resenting people.

I have too much stress and lately NPF has been adding to it. It was always intended to reduce, to be a fun and welcoming kind of place, not stressful. I led this place, and whether I like it or not it ended up where it has under my leadership and I feel too responsible for watching every person that leaves, like it was a personal failure on my part. Every time someone left because of a disagreement or whatever. The only way I can alleviate that is if I can tell myself it's not my fault. I have trouble doing that though, so I'm taking the coward's way and basically fucking off.

I'll miss...I'll miss my belief of what I once thought this place was supposed to be. I'll miss most of you guys, too. I won't miss my failure to foster a healthy thriving community and environment though, I hope whomever comes forward as the next captain of this ship does a better job than me of balancing the expectations and realities.

Professor Smarmiarty · 11-27-2012, 04:44 PM

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Originally Posted by shiney

Every time someone left because of a disagreement or whatever. The only way I can alleviate that is if I can tell myself it's not my fault. I have trouble doing that though, so I'm taking the coward's way and basically fucking off.

Just blame me. It's what everyone else does to hide their raging inadequacies.

RobinStarwing · 11-27-2012, 04:50 PM

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Originally Posted by shiney

Thanks. I may still participate in the help thread in community, various political threads or guild wars 2 or whatever. We'll see. Right now it's kind of important for me to have a bit of distance though, it's been a bit much this year and I don't...I don't need, this guilty feeling I have, of watching everyone recycle the same arguments, and feeling at once responsible for lacking a steady hand while also resenting people.

I have too much stress and lately NPF has been adding to it. It was always intended to reduce, to be a fun and welcoming kind of place, not stressful. I led this place, and whether I like it or not it ended up where it has under my leadership and I feel too responsible for watching every person that leaves, like it was a personal failure on my part. Every time someone left because of a disagreement or whatever. The only way I can alleviate that is if I can tell myself it's not my fault. I have trouble doing that though, so I'm taking the coward's way and basically fucking off.

I'll miss...I'll miss my belief of what I once thought this place was supposed to be. I'll miss most of you guys, too. I won't miss my failure to foster a healthy thriving community and environment though, I hope whomever comes forward as the next captain of this ship does a better job than me of balancing the expectations and realities.

Hope I will be one of the missed despite the fact I contributed to some of that stress.

As to what you are doing be the cowards way out...don't think that for a minute shiney. If you are getting no fun and/or worse crap you don't need right now added to your life, then you have the right to dump out of you life what is giving you issues and headaches. If that is NPF, then so be it. Never was it your fault though that shit happens here sometimes and people leave.

Everyone makes choices and I choose to stay here despite me having issues myself with people on occasion. I stay because in the end, you guys give me a place I can be myself and vent things when I need to.

Ryong · 11-27-2012, 04:52 PM

Given how the last forum I was on had everyone who wasn't a regular be treated like shit until they got to a thousand posts and when the forums were closing down people were unbanned and every thread became goatse spam, to say this place has been better is an understatement.

I don't think what's been happening was your fault. Self-regulation is an important part of internet communities and it's a quality not everyone has - and it isn't exactly something you learn and then never screw up. It's also the whole deal of "oh hey, it's x person, here comes the spam and snide remarks that no one's going to do shit about" or "hey y made a stupid thread, he'll never stop being an idiot" that ends up happening when everyone's mostly known eachother for a while. Basically, everything Blues realized and had on his signature ( but kind of didn't follow, I guess* ).

The Artist Formerly Known as Hawk · 11-27-2012, 04:58 PM

Still less of a shithole than most other places on the internet.
Sorry to see you go Shiney, hopefully you will pop in now and again and say hi.

Seil · 11-27-2012, 05:05 PM

O Captain! my Captain! our fearful trip is done;
The ship has weather'd every rack, the prize we sought is won;
The port is near, the bells I hear, the people all exulting,
While follow eyes the steady keel, the vessel grim and daring:
But O heart! heart! heart!
O the bleeding drops of red,
Where on the deck my Captain lies,
Fallen cold and dead.

O Captain! my Captain! rise up and hear the bells;
Rise up--for you the flag is flung--for you the bugle trills; 10
For you bouquets and ribbon'd wreaths--for you the shores a-crowding;
For you they call, the swaying mass, their eager faces turning;
Here Captain! dear father!
This arm beneath your head;
It is some dream that on the deck,
You've fallen cold and dead.

My Captain does not answer, his lips are pale and still;
My father does not feel my arm, he has no pulse nor will;
The ship is anchor'd safe and sound, its voyage closed and done;
From fearful trip, the victor ship, comes in with object won;
Exult, O shores, and ring, O bells!
But I, with mournful tread,
Walk the deck my Captain lies,
Fallen cold and dead.

Flarecobra · 11-27-2012, 05:23 PM

Well, I guess there's just one thing to say...

See ya later ShineyShineyShinies.

Bard The 5th LW · 11-27-2012, 05:38 PM

Adios bromigo

Magus · 11-27-2012, 05:51 PM

Clearly you just need to give up that whole "having a life" thing.

11-27-2012, 04:40 PM	#12
shiney Derrrrrrrrrrrrrp. Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: The land of fartz and buttz Posts: 8,266	Thanks. I may still participate in the help thread in community, various political threads or guild wars 2 or whatever. We'll see. Right now it's kind of important for me to have a bit of distance though, it's been a bit much this year and I don't...I don't need, this guilty feeling I have, of watching everyone recycle the same arguments, and feeling at once responsible for lacking a steady hand while also resenting people. I have too much stress and lately NPF has been adding to it. It was always intended to reduce, to be a fun and welcoming kind of place, not stressful. I led this place, and whether I like it or not it ended up where it has under my leadership and I feel too responsible for watching every person that leaves, like it was a personal failure on my part. Every time someone left because of a disagreement or whatever. The only way I can alleviate that is if I can tell myself it's not my fault. I have trouble doing that though, so I'm taking the coward's way and basically fucking off. I'll miss...I'll miss my belief of what I once thought this place was supposed to be. I'll miss most of you guys, too. I won't miss my failure to foster a healthy thriving community and environment though, I hope whomever comes forward as the next captain of this ship does a better job than me of balancing the expectations and realities. __________________ boop

11-27-2012, 04:52 PM	#15
Ryong Professional Threadkiller Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Brazil Posts: 3,798	Given how the last forum I was on had everyone who wasn't a regular be treated like shit until they got to a thousand posts and when the forums were closing down people were unbanned and every thread became goatse spam, to say this place has been better is an understatement. I don't think what's been happening was your fault. Self-regulation is an important part of internet communities and it's a quality not everyone has - and it isn't exactly something you learn and then never screw up. It's also the whole deal of "oh hey, it's x person, here comes the spam and snide remarks that no one's going to do shit about" or "hey y made a stupid thread, he'll never stop being an idiot" that ends up happening when everyone's mostly known eachother for a while. Basically, everything Blues realized and had on his signature ( but kind of didn't follow, I guess* ( pot, meet kettle ) ).

11-27-2012, 05:05 PM	#17
Seil Super stressed! Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: British Columbia Posts: 8,081	I had a speech prepared, but then I thought 'Screw it.' and went with a youtube. O Captain! my Captain! our fearful trip is done; The ship has weather'd every rack, the prize we sought is won; The port is near, the bells I hear, the people all exulting, While follow eyes the steady keel, the vessel grim and daring: But O heart! heart! heart! O the bleeding drops of red, Where on the deck my Captain lies, Fallen cold and dead. O Captain! my Captain! rise up and hear the bells; Rise up--for you the flag is flung--for you the bugle trills; 10 For you bouquets and ribbon'd wreaths--for you the shores a-crowding; For you they call, the swaying mass, their eager faces turning; Here Captain! dear father! This arm beneath your head; It is some dream that on the deck, You've fallen cold and dead. My Captain does not answer, his lips are pale and still; My father does not feel my arm, he has no pulse nor will; The ship is anchor'd safe and sound, its voyage closed and done; From fearful trip, the victor ship, comes in with object won; Exult, O shores, and ring, O bells! But I, with mournful tread, Walk the deck my Captain lies, Fallen cold and dead.

11-27-2012, 05:23 PM	#18
Flarecobra Burn. Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: Classified Posts: 11,017	Well, I guess there's just one thing to say... See ya later ShineyShineyShinies. __________________ "Only the fool wishes to go into battle to beat someone for the satisfaction of beating someone." -A Thousand Sons Rules. Read them, know them, love them.

11-27-2012, 05:38 PM	#19
Bard The 5th LW Feelin' Super! Join Date: May 2009 Posts: 4,191	Adios bromigo

11-27-2012, 05:51 PM	#20
Magus Archer and Armstrong vs. the World Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Pennsylvania Posts: 7,164	Clearly you just need to give up that whole "having a life" thing.