Fortunately it never got physical - it was a colleague through work but in another state - but it
was emotional and spiritual and I think that was actually far more devastating to Nikki. I'm doing everything I can to make up for it. Thanks to you guys for support/etc.
Yeah it's been extremely difficult on her though. I don't expect to hear the end of it for some time, but she has come tremendously far, all things considered. She didn't have much self-esteem beforehand so I was instrumental in crippling that...but she's really impressed me and made me proud. You ever get that feeling where you really actually feel like you don't deserve someone's love? Yeah I've felt that a lot of times after what I did, but she still loves me.
It could be a lot worse.